Changes

Im making some changes in my life.

Ricky asked us in Ecuador what we would be taking home with us and my answer was pretty broad. I said new perspectives. On life, people, God, missions, friendships, everything. And I had every intention to apply that to my life. But I had no clue at that time what it actually meant to do that. Many times, when we have some sort of break through that makes us want to change things in our lives, we have to search and be on the look out for opportunities to use those lessons. That is pretty much what I expected. I thought that it would be applied in things yet to come. In situations, friendships, and matters yet to come. I thought God had given me a new experience and wisdom, if you will, to use in the future. But what I found out was completely the opposite. I hadn't realized that what I took home with me from this trip could be an aid to things currently going on in my life. A couple of nights ago I was telling Dane all about the trip. I was telling him what I had learned and the things that God was showing me. And as I was talking God just began to speak to me and point out a certain relationship in my life that needed healing. He applied what He taught me on the trip to my present situation. I guess I just got really caught up thinking about it cause I started to tell Dane everything God was putting in my heart right then. I didn't realize what all I was syaing until I was done talking.

I've been a very selfish friend. My best friend and I have hardly talked in the past year. Most of the time it was on purpose, we didnt want to speak. Sure, there have been many reasons, but I think its all somewhat rooted in my selfishness. I got stuck in my beliefs and could no longer see her for who she truly is. (She is a beautiful and very blessed girl with a birght future ahead of her, to say the very least.) But all I was seeing were her flaws, and I can't tell you how I got this way or why I didnt see it before now cause I dont know. But we talked the other night. Probably the longest and definitely the most meaningful onversation we've had all year. I told her everything that was going through my mind and heart. And now, everything is so much better. We texted all day long after that. Just small talk about whatever. It was so nice. Her mom has asked me to be a part of her birthday present that only family and her boyfriend were involved with. Everything is begining to fall back into place.

There is more to come. I can feel it. God is moving.

Please, whatever God is speaking to you, embrace it. We try to do things our own way and just end up digging deeper holes. God knows what's best for you. He designed you; He sees the bigger picture. Trust in Him.