My Rantings

Well, its really been a crazy week and Im sure it will only get crazier.



It seems life slows down sometimes. It doesn't take a break, but it does slow down. But just long enough for you to catch your breath. Then, with no warning at all, it explodes. You're caught up into this big chaotic whirlwind of suprises and let-downs, deadlines and beginings, responsibility and blamelessness. Everything begins happening at once. You do so much throughout your day and yet you feel as if you've made hardly any progress. Where does time go? Thats just the way it works though. You can't change it or stop it. You say you hate it when life gets like this, but you dont. Sure, its stressful and sometimes overwhelming, but its what you live for. Without this crazy "cycle", life would be boring, and you know it.



April and May have been completely crazy months for me with very little down time. I really feel like it should still be March. This year has flown by. But that's okay. I graduate tomorrow. I reminder of how everything's gonna change. To tell you the truth, Im not so sad about leaving my school. Sure, I have freinds there, good friends, and I'll miss them. But I know they're out there making something of themselves, becoming who they want to be. I'll try to keep in touch of course, but I know there will be many that i never see or speak to again, and I'm okay with that. That's just part of life. You grow up and go your own way. The thing that really gets me is leaving my church. I've never gone to another church (on a regular basis, i mean). I always say I didnt grow up in church, but really I did. Yeah, I didnt start going until I was like 11 or 12, but isnt that where the process begins? I feel like that church, and the people in it, have helped shape me into the person I am today. Its gonna be hard. But I know God is God. No matter where He's at -- whether that be a different church, city, country, whatever-- He's still the same God that's been with me from day 1. I just have to keep reminding myself of that.

I'll stop boring you with my sad graduation stories lol.


Aside from all that ........

Can I ask you, whoever you may be, to pray for me? Today has been....hard to say the least. I dont need to give any details, but please, I need your prayers.



I guess that's it for today. Mission trip stuff tonight!!! =)